Written at 2026-08-26 02:17

♪ I.W. - only a small number of reasons keep me on this planet and I lose a couple more everyday

ranked every half of my life from 2018 to now. explanations below. 2026 2H is still ongoing so that one is subject to change obviously.

S

2019 2H — tried many new things, a lot of good memories with friends, recovered from the crippling depression earlier in the year and felt good overall.

2022 2H — moved out, being independent felt very good, was able to enjoy life and have my own income was nice, good memories made with friends as well.

2020 1H — continuing from 2019, felt good overall, also covid lockdowns felt novel and nice too tbh.

A

2025 2H — a very big personal problem i had was resolved, felt alot of relief, also moved out again (had moved back in with parents), started seeing someone and eventually started dating, also work achievement was pretty decent.

2018 2H — just got into university, felt like my life was finally starting (lmfao), and the r6 squad was very memorable.

2022 1H — start of employment, felt like i was getting out of the depression hole finally, and starting something of my own.

B

2025 1H — pretty decent, nothing too special.

2024 2H — actually got into a irl relationship (didnt last long), and actually did stuff together, and also got out of the shitty job.

2018 1H — unremarkable, i was skipping classes to prepare for programming contests tho lol (senior year of hs btw).

2021 2H — a bit better than first half of 2021, but still pretty depressed and cringe overall.

2026 2H — unremarkable (but this is subject to change, its ongoing after all).

C

2024 1H — gambling addiction, but this addiction at least kept me from feeling like complete dogshit though, a bit better than 2023, but still, lost alot of money and was not very good, dogshit job too.

D

2026 1H — no idea what even happened. just felt like time dilation, i dont remember anything from this period, it just happened. was feeling pretty depressed and dead inside alot, alot of angst.

2023 1H — below mid, i cant even explain why it just felt dogshit here.

2020 2H — got sick and tired of lockdowns and just felt very unloved and dogshit.

2021 1H — same as 2020 2H.

F

2023 2H — aimless dogshit job still, i lowkey hoped i would get hit by a car while going to work everyday, legit thought i thought this was all life would offer and i thought of killing myself anyday tbh.

2019 1H — The Incident.